A Breath of Air to Watch it all Crumble
It's been a while so I guess I'll start with an apology to anyone who's put the time in to actually read this thing and found it not updated in so long.
So lets see. I want my readers to know that I do what I can to make sure these posts don't point fingers but in all honesty the people I see everyday are the ones that inspire most of the stuff I write about. This post is about as ungeneral as I ever plan to get.
Standards (courtesy of dictionary.com)
a) A degree or level of requirement, excellence, or attainment.
b) A requirement of moral conduct. Often used in the plural.
I have so many of them, for myself, for my friends, for everyone really. A lot of people say "you shouldn't judge" well I'll probably get into that in another post, but for the sake of clarity I will say that I do it all the time. Perhaps thats where it all comes from, the crumbling I am watching all around me.
And what is my question? Exactly when is it that you are expecting too much? When does a friend's or lover's mistake stop being a mistake and start being a disappointment? Where is the line? When does a person you have judged worthy of your time and love become unworthy? This is a difficult question, there isnt an objective measurement that you could use for this. How it would it be if there was? A time interval? or perhaps a fixed amount? Probably not, seeing as how none of them take into account the relationship you have with the person and a million other things that would be quite neccessary when making any kind of determination about a person and who they are.
Thats actually what we are getting at isn't, who are these people. Why can they do the things they do? Or better yet, why do they do the things they do? What are their intentions, what are they trying to accomplish? Can a person really be so oblivious to their actions? and to those actions' consequeces?
These past few weeks I have seen so many things crumbling away. Everything from family to friends. And it's become a vision of sorrow. People I had and still have enormous respects for seem to be falling. I will say that there are those who are aware of themselves and those who are not. I worry more for those who are not, these are the people who will continue to be consumed by these acts and their ways are only going to become more deplorable as they go along.
I have said goodbye to some of them, and to others I have said be careful. For now, I suppose I'll just keep looking out my windows. Watching and waiting for the days where the crumbling stops and the restoration begins or the darker days where there simply is nothing left of them to crumble.
The thing I've learned from it all? Standards. They will stay and the bar will only get higher with passing days. Having standards has gotten me to where I am and having standards wil keep me on the road I'm on and with the people who deserve to be there with me.